impact

The joyful golden doggo can stack

People always ask me how did I raise such a beautiful happy dog named Finnegan. "He is this, and he is that. What did you do?"

Well, whatever the encounter was, it sure made an impact on me to be a dog momma. All I can recall is one evening looking out the window. We had just purchased our first iPhones and not long before that, we got a sexy Sony flatscreen TV. At 5'2", I found myself weighing 122 pounds, unhappy and feeling very unattractive in my relationship. Every single night I grew to dislike sitting in front of the TV eating dinner and Ben and Jerry's ice cream; falling asleep on the couch only having to wake up in the middle of the night to get in bed. This happened frequently, and I grew weary and deeply concerned about the long term impact of what I was doing to this vessel I claimed as my body. A thought bubble appears, and I said to myself, I didn't get in a relationship to sit on my expanding butt, watching people live their lives vicariously in the screen. So that one evening, in that state of disgust and yearning, I looked out the window and witnessed our street full of people walking their dogs. One, in particular, caught my eye, a big labrador/Newfie mix, a happy looking dog with white feet which later we learned to be named "Brian." His eyes looked bright, fresh, and smiled with swagger and his people walked side by side holding hands. Next thing I did was researching breeds and temperaments of different kinds of dogs. I remember loving a miniature Schnauzer, but that was short-lived. I spoke with breeders and volunteered at shelters to walk dogs to get the vibes of different kinds of dogs. Without effort and hassle, when I encountered a golden retriever male that was the last left of his litter, it didn't take much for me to convince myself to reach out my hands to hold and embrace him. I knew instantly what my role would be for him; I would take great care of him. The rest is history.

Relationships are not just with people. It is also with dogs, cats, whatever animal or living being who is under your care. It is also with money, it is also with our company, our state, our city, whatever we encounter in our lives. From what I see in the world we live in, there is no moral distinction of who is better and deserves better care. We have a role and have an impact. How do we want to make it happen? We can make our lives more difficult full of limitations by thinking, viewing, feeling, and seeing a certain way. Yes, life happens. Stuff happens. It can wreck our lives, but at the end of the day, we can choose to get up and move on and grow. It takes practice and study and desire. Going back to the dog, and how Finnegan got to be who he is, it is him. Just like any other being, he lives and moves forward through walking; smelling the world around him as he migrates marking his spots to remember his way home and learn about his world. As a dog momma, it is my commitment to give him the quality of life. Dogs have to be leashed, they are fenced, locked up as pets to provide love to their people. I feel that is not enough. When I decided to adopt a dog, I wasn't just going to leave him as my property. As far as I know in my experience, he spreads joy. I learned a lot from his company and energy. I always will be forever looking up for my Papa, who showed me how to love animals and cultivate trust and relationship with them. I will also be forever quiet and gratified for my American grandpa who talked about the quality of life and how what we do with our body has a cost in life. I realize my thoughts are extreme in this "pet" world and that I may be viewed as crazy, but I am not going to care what others may think. We live in a free society, or better yet, I strive that way of living. We create our life and expression. I am jazzed to see that there are more doggie mommas and pops out there who are going against the grain, giving their pups more than just a pet life. I don't feel so alone and weird.

This is the energy and vibe I put out when I work. I want to work with individuals whose values align with mine, and my values align with theirs. I want to be embraced for my uniqueness, passion, and love of music.

Vibing with this groove as I finish this post and in the words of my love language, Japan: “Konichiwa” by Danny Benét who is opening for one of my fave bands from Los Angeles this Friday, August 5, 2019, at The Independent in San Francisco. Music is love. Come out and play.

Labor of Love

If we are going out into the world to be and live our life to create impact into this world through epic servitude, we owe it to ourselves to get into the grittiness of ourselves. Looking inward and deeply embracing what is there. Life happens. We are constantly impressed by someone or something. Sometimes there are moments where we are able to slow down, pause, and events in our life, we are given the opportunity to observe (if we let it) and see this (put something into action). If we are lucky enough, we get to see this raw being we call ourselves. It is a window. Now the next thing is to whether look through or go through; opening it or keeping it closed. You have the power more than you think. Whether you like it or not, we are just hitting the surface. If you want to dig deeper, seek those who will guide; empower, cultivate courage and trust within you, break the limitations for you to discover and explore this to get to love for yourself and to the world. All power to you.

Tilting to a little thing: When we were little girls and boys, what sparked stuff within us? When did you get to sit down with your family or friends, sit quietly and learn to open perspective? When was the last time you did something new and get out there? When was the last time you fell in love with the person talking to you just through listening intently (you not listening to respond but hearing) and allowing them to flower like a lotus flower? So many possibilities. What is your intention for all this? Who do you thank? Who do you celebrate? Who do you respect? Who do you trust? Questions are endless. The spark is within you. You are the creator and designer of your life.

Exercises to start:

Get out in the world. Have dinner with friends and turn off your phone. Talk to random people or with a person you love that you haven’t talked to. Initiate a conversation and bring a vulnerable topic. See what happens when you do something opposite you are told or heard to do.

Playlist: Songs that bring you joy.

Hope you find yourself lit up with this. Remember your mind is powerful. You are enough. You are beautiful. Rock your love.

On intentions

New year. New you. Here’s why every day is a great day to set our intentions. It is never too late and it doesn’t have to be New Years. What’s important is that we are taking the step to actually write and put our energy in how we want to be, express, and how we want to create.

How beautiful it is to see my friends and family as 2018 passed and now here is 2019. Why?

Deep down, there is always this desire within us to make things better for ourselves and set goals. What drives us to do this? It is a remarkable thing. Aren't people amazing? Why? We use this time to see that it is a gift to have space, time and the ability to renew ourselves. The new year is beautiful. Each day is an expression. How am I going to be?

Thankful for the year-end and new years to reflect and practice.

Questions to ask oneself:

What is my intention?

Are my actions and mindset in line with that intention?

Why is it important to check oneself?

What steps am I taking to create this space of purpose?

Is it working?

How are you going to be?

It is exciting. It is humbling to observe the mind. Stay open. That is the intention. Lean back to lean in. Trust. Risk. Be open. Thrive. Lead. Inspire.

I am excited and grateful to be one of the chosen women to participate in this initiative. It is called affhermation (https://affhermation.org). Check it out.