openness

My Year at Starbucks and Clarity

When I walked up to my neighborhood Starbucks, the thought that was in my mind at the time was curious about my little town Los Altos in the heart of Silicon Valley. I felt like an outsider, a foreign body, not knowing anyone. Oddly enough, when I walked into that store, I had a sensation I couldn't point out. I remember someone behind me asking me, "What is that Third Place?" I honestly did not know what it meant, but I thought it was a fundraiser or some initiative. I did not know, though, that it was something bigger than myself. I was about to embark on that journey to find out.

When I moved to the Bay Area, a storyline was playing in my mind. "I don't know anyone in this town, and I don't belong." I looked around; I felt like I did not get any eye contact from anyone when we walked around in the neighborhood. I also heard from the fellow locals in the dog park that “people are not friendly here,” so I was starting to wonder if this idea was true, that no one was friendly or that there is something wrong with me, or maybe I looked unapproachable, always being in black. This went on for months; I couldn't count how long. Until a friend invited us to go on a walk to the nearest coffee shop, and Finnegan helped me discover the little Starbucks Rancho store because of his familiarity with the "pup cup."

I worked as a knowledge professional in the learning and development, higher ed, tech space, public sector, having devoted my time in a large state university in the heart of an agriculture town in Ohio. So the idea of working at a coffee shop, let alone a mega-corporation like Starbucks, was beyond me. Thoughts visited my head, both internally and externally. I had to grabble with specific recurring thoughts because some ideas made me feel somewhat inadequate and low.

This is a brief story of a journey with a meditation app. Years ago, I found myself on a plane to India, with the idea that I would have a romantic moment with my boyfriend at the time. He gave me a Valentine's; he was always good at doing things like gift-giving and saying the "right" things to pump me up. When I arrived, my world turned upside down. All my plans of having a romantic adventure was shattered into pieces on the floor. We got separated. I couldn't hang out with him. We were in a silent retreat, so of course, this was going to be definite hell. I could not do anything I wanted or expected. Fast forward thru the living hell, I came out of the retreat, there was something inside me that shifted, and meditation became part of my life. I became a volunteer to the world around me; even today, I type these words.

This past year was beyond what I imaged and expected. From my experience, working at Starbucks is a joyful opportunity; realizing that there is no separation between working at a university from being a learning professional or a cafe attendant crafting espresso drinks. In this coffee shop, it is a beautiful living organism of wonderful people caring for others. I discovered the joy and meaning of the “Third Place.” I learned about measuring success beyond metrics and brand identity, embracing diversity and inclusiveness, and being with grace - something bigger than ourselves. I learned more about iterations' beauty to ensure our customers' safety and health during this global health disruption. I learned the importance of observation and being present to discover pain points in our users our customers, including our fellow baristas. I am thrilled to experience that sprints exist while warming food and serving beverages. I learned about safety, and melding customer service. Working at Starbucks is a frontline customer success story. It is a creative endeavour more than I can ever imagine, sparking ideas in my mind during my breaks to meditate. Seeing people, our customers, come in and return telling us how they feel are powerful lessons where we constantly evolved, adapted, and made things familiar, convenient, and safe. What an empowering tale of trust, retention, honouring values, embracing things as they are, focusing on human-centred design, relationship building, and connecting with our community. It is a story of public health and hygiene, cultivating respect for others by wearing our masks to protect people from our "goo," the list is endless. So I thank my lucky stars for being the place where I needed to be. I wanted to be. Being open and allowing that anything is possible. It is a playground for kindness and compassion. Hope. Consider me an optimist.

There is no one way to a career or journey. It is a remarkable gift to be alive and breathing, walking, being a mother to my beloved Finn, and working at a humble little coffee shop that is also a titan. This time has also been a great lesson on watching pride and not being attached to the idea of being a certain way. There is a balance. There will be moments where shame projected by external forces and other uncomfortable thoughts and ideas will want to hang out and play with our minds. “Is this our intelligence going against us?” This is a window. We have a choice to be blissful. I am fortunate and privileged to be reminded of this every day. Some incredible teachers and dreamers started something extraordinary. An opportunity was created, and now I am listening to it every day.

I am so happy and thankful for this space and time.

All the things from wise teachers before us and at present moments.

Be open.

Be kind to your mind.

Everything is possible. “Being human is super.” Doubt is an opportunity.

So many opportunities.

It is limitless.

Wishing whoever finds this, love, health, and happiness wherever you are. xo

Infinite Love - Our Mom

August is my mom's birthday month, and undoubtedly enough, I find myself reflecting on what impact I have had on her life as her daughter. I don't know if this is an Asian thing, but this thought is in my day to day experience, always thinking about my mom. For years, I have ever had this dream to move West.

Moving from Ohio to California without a job, I thought at first was brave and exciting, thinking that I would find a formidable role since I heard that jobs are abundant here in Silicon Valley. Then I'd move to my own cute Craftsman bungalow house with a tiny yard with a garden that Finn can bask in the sun. I would invite my parents to come over and make them dinner in my beautiful backlit yard strung with cafe lights. I would ask my sisters for a sister-hang on the tiny porch, and they would help me decorate the rooms shopping for some furniture and kitchen and dining items, you name it. I would invite my new friends to come over for wine and a porch-hang and learn about their stories losing track of time. I would have my neighbors for coffee and breakfast and express how grateful I am; I got to find the place I live in. I see my friends in Ohio and New York visit and have a place to crash, so they didn’t have to stay at a hotel. I would walk to the nearest park and coffee shop with Finnegan and connect with the neighbors. These were the things I saw.

Somewhere along the way, things shifted inside me that I couldn't figure out what I was seeing. Next thing I know I started getting thoughts in my head saying

"you are not good enough for that role."

“it’s amazing how you don’t know how to …”

"you are not director material"

"don’t be weird"

“you are &** (this and that)”

… months. Later, I found myself following a storyline that defeated the spirit in me to dream of a big joyful prosperous life. I have been known to be a cheerful, joyful, fun, and positive person, bringing my energy of joy everywhere I went. What is this?

So people I know would send me roles that would be exciting, but I often thought to myself, I would not be a good fit for that role what is that person thinking? But I remained thankful and not get my hopes too high. I don’t have the qualifications. I don’t know HTML, JavaSript, CSS, Python, I don’t know how to code. I did not graduate from an Ivy League, Stanford, or Berkeley or UCI, you name it, I had the reason and the mindset of not believing in myself. This is what happens when we internalize external things. It is easy to get caught in it if we don’t stop and pause and take inventory of our self. It takes a certain energy to call it out and hold up the mirror. I would sabotage my chances by getting my head in the way.

So as August draws to a close, thinking of my mom and her boundless love and faith in me. Thanking me for moving to California, I dedicate my search for a job so that I move out of the house. I worry about you doing so much for our family. My mother exemplifies love, devotion, sacrifice, perseverance, and hope. I love you so much. I will get that role—tears of joy.

Be kind. Keep being earnest and keep moving forward, because you want to make sure they are cared for as well. <3 Aiko

As August 2020 draws near to a close with a pandemic, California fires, social and civil unrest, political transition, I reflect on my mother’s love who celebrates her birthday this month along with our grandmother, aunts in Japan, all the mothers i…

As August 2020 draws near to a close with a pandemic, California fires, social and civil unrest, political transition, I reflect on my mother’s love who celebrates her birthday this month along with our grandmother, aunts in Japan, all the mothers in the world, I reflect on mine. Inspired by today’s meditation with Headspace 08/22/2020. Aiko Yonamine

UX/UI

When I left home for the university. I never imagined years later, I would be sitting like a lotus flower typing about my experience and desire to keep learning something new. I have always had a deep love for Liberal Arts and Social and Behavioral Sciences. It cultivated a quiet appreciation for exploration and discoveries. These discoveries were not just reading unaffordable used textbooks, but meeting people from diverse backgrounds, living frugality, working in retail while putting myself through school to pay for my food and housing; a girl always falling in and out of love, overcoming adversity, fostering friendships, enjoying the moment. It has opened doors to dimensions I could never imagine if I had not taken the leap of faith to just do.

I have been exploring UX Design on my own. As a side note, the fact that I moved to California without a job lined up was a crazy romanticized move. With this newfound experience of a kick in the pants status, rather than pining or lamenting for a formal UX/UI education, I took on a challenge of exploring alternative kinds of learning environments to study it instead of that high-priced tuition from an institution I couldn't financially justify. Right now, the silly thing to be grateful for is that I have the time and space, health, soul and openness to the experience of finding and crafting my own curriculum. My time is valuable, and I want to use it learning something new and getting myself in a new healthy headspace. I realize this is a considerable risk, but why make it safe, with not knowing or if Karl the Fog flirting with me, there is an excellent opportunity for building an emotional connection. After all, I want to find the true meaning of user experience. To build empathy, moments of struggle, frustration must be there. I could make myself miserable by being in pity mode "woe-is-me-mode," or I could have fun with comment bubbles of self-discovery. Adversity is embraced as I open my heart space. In the meantime, lean back, breath, and exhale and let the lyrics of moving this soul be allowed to flourish. Thank you for your space. Thank you for your love of learning. Thanks for embracing this moment. Here we go.

Here’s a start:

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On Vision, Willingness and the spirit of Volunteerism

Whatever we decide we want to do in our life, it is a practice to have vision. What is that vision? How will our mindset be? When we step into a space, how will our energy be? Before we start something, be aware of our experience and our headspace. With what are we identified? How does this create openness within us?

It is the spirit of cultivating an energy of willingness. The energy of openness and no ego. The energy of doing what it takes to make things happen, create possibility and opportunity. The minute we categorize and measure that it is good or bad, what do we notice in ourselves? How can we become cognizant of how things feel in our experience?

What daily practice helps you kickstart your day and create a higher consciousness? I hope this inspires you to find a practice where you already find joy right in front of you and expand happiness to community, world, you fill the blank. It is within. Much love.