This blog post is a stream of consciousness. It’s a work of soul art.
This journey that I put myself in is not an easy one. It is a pivot in career and space. It’s diving or flying into the unknown. Do not fear. Oh yeah? Are you sure? No, but it will be great. I pledge to take care of myself and make sure I eat well and nourish my body with food that is dense in nutrients. I pledge to get plenty of rest. I have dreams to make happen. It takes a healthy mind, body and soul to make it happen. It is my pledge to talk to my friends to be accountable about what I eat and how much rest I get. Learning takes energy and energy needs nutrients and rest. It’s pretty amazing. With rest, I am also talking about the importance of a restful mind, heart and soul.
With learning, I feel a rush. It’s like hearing a song for the very first time and my brain is firing up that I want to keep learning and listening. I am writing my dreams, putting them all down in my notebook. It’s all random. It’s the subconscious mind. Contained in the pages, I address the fear and acknowledge it. I release it. Grateful for this.
I am looking for a place to live. I want to have my own place. I have so much I want to do. I want to focus on my energy on creating a new challenge here in California, anywhere. I still can’t believe how I managed to let go of a lot of material goods, leaving a place and community I love so much. This community has given me so much joy and happiness. Columbus is magical. I am truly lucky to have found such a rich community. Friends that love and create great things. How did I do all that? How was I not fearful of quitting my job? Leaving my house? I love my friends so much and my neighborhood, my city, my work. I wasn’t afraid to land in California with no job lined up. I didn’t have a job and I went anywhere. I am proud about that. I am fearless. I am courageously crazy and I believe that something will come up. Imagine having the confidence to move like that. I still can’t believe it. Yeah, it’s August 2019, almost September and I am ready. I see creating a community. I see visiting my friends in Columbus, New York, Alicante, Paris and going to Chile again. I haven’t left you behind my friends. I love you forever. I am always here. My dream is to be unbounded by excuses and fear. I figured out a way to donate and sell my stuff in Ohio because I loved my family so much I was willing to let go of practically EVERYTHING. I had a job when I quit my instructional design work. My job came in the form of working towards moving to California. Come to think of it. It is a huge accomplishment. I am grateful for my friends who helped make it happen. I think of you all the time and I am grateful I get to talk to you during my walks. I am grateful for my sister Mabet for flying to Columbus to help me. How did she gain energy to help me like that? She has enough to worry about but she made the time to come help me Kondo my house. How she makes things happen inspires me.
Here’s a little random thought bubble. We want to do something. Our brain tells us “no you can’t, because it’s too hard and I’ll make sure its hard for you so you back to your comfort zone and stay the same and stagnant. Meanwhile, go ahead and collect and accumulate so that you really can’t go anywhere and so we can make excuses of why we can’t do this or that or go there.”
I want to cultivate my love of music and the arts. I want to harness my love for creating community. I dream of forging close relationship with my mom and dad and sisters and brother. I came here inspired by my friends who return home to be with their family in Ohio. Keep working on it. Stay the course. Stay joyful within. Everything you encounter will help you move forward. It’s an opportunity.
Closing this with a new song by Ariel Pink and hope you enjoy the lyrics. Hear the lyrics. Genius harmonies and use of words. Great art too. Have fun. Thanks for finding this and actually scrolling down to read this.